"i love you" / Billie Eilish -- go get your box of tissues!!
good afternoon friends and family!! I have some good news for you all... I made it through my freshman year of college!! And honestly, that is a HUGE accomplishment considering all the actual sh*t that went down... ya! You would be surprised by all the things you can get yourself through when you never give up hope. :)) Even in awful situations, it is super important to never give up on yourself and trust in those around you to help you get through the worst of times! Anyways, now that I am officially all moved out of school for the year and back home (jokes on SNC because I'm never going back lol...), now I can focus on how I am literally going to be wondering around Europe for a month with my best friend to kick off this amazing summer! I also spontaneously chopped all my hair off and got my nose pierced because I had a dream that I did a couple of nights ago... dreams do come true kiddos! Never stop believing in yourself because you never know what you are capable of accomplishing. :)
So I want to make this goal for myself -- every week this summer (at least), I am going to post on this blog. I know this blog is mainly for my music and how it affects me emotionally, but especially with all the change that I am going through, I don't want to mainly focus on just music. I will still try to give some song recommendations with each post, but overall, this is will a safe place for me to share all of my adventures for this summer (and there will be a lot)!! Anyways, at the beginning of last week, I decided to make a new playlist on Spotify (which is still superior to iTunes) called "times are changing, wake up kid", because I realized that I had been listening to so much new music that was literally all over the place. Also, the name of the playlist really reflects my current situation in life (lol) with change coming at me from ALL directions... but somehow, I have managed to roll with all the punches (so far). Also, the picture for the playlist is a flower -- because we all have to go through different periods of growth! :) If anyone of you know me personally, all I would listen to up until this January was acoustic music. While I am not saying that this music is bad... I just now understand that there is a specific time and place for it (like studying or just trying to calm down).
Now, I have BRANCHED out!! Some people that I am currently getting into are as follows: BROCKHAMPTON, Billie Eilish, Post Malone (a God - I swear), Dijon (featured two posts ago!), and Childish Gambino! I know -- some huge steps from what I was previously listening to! But really, it is all for the better. Whenever I listen to this music, I just want to get up and DANCE!! Obviously, I am still a die hard Maggie Rogers or The Head and the Heart fan... but seriously, pleaseeeee go check out some of the people that I have listed above because they are really really good. :)
For today, I am gonna break out the emotions because I really really want to share how the song "i love you" by Billie Eilish has affected me. This song is off her most recent album, "When we all fall asleep, where do we go?", which actually made her publicity explode... seriously, she is so talented and she's only 17 (already way more successful than I ever will be lol). While I am sure all of you guys have listened to "wish you were gay", "bury a friend", or even "when the party's over", a less well-known song by her, "i love you", is actually incredible. This is going back to my obsession with acoustic music -- "i love you" is acoustic and absolutely devastating. Honestly, I try not to listen to super sad music all the time (anymore) because it just reminds me of all the sh*t that went down during these past couple of months....
but I do want to elaborate on this song, because like I said, it is beautiful.
My favorite lyrics in this song are in the second verse:
"Up all night on another red eye.
I wish we never learned to fly.
Maybe we should just try to tell ourselves a good lie."
This song is all about how someone said to someone else how they love them... but in reality, it was too soon. Then, they try to brush it off like it was nothing... except for when you tell someone that you "love them", there is no going back. Love is so deep and powerful that it makes people so vulnerable and sensitive in that moment. That is why it is is so painful to fall out of love -- because to love someone (to really love them), you cannot just cut them out of your life forever; they will always be attached to your heart in some way (almost like a tattoo). Anyways, Billie says "I wish we never to learned to fly", implying how falling in love is like flying: everything is AMAZING until you crash into the ground. It hurts so much when the love ends, like when you lose your wings and fall from the sky. Billie is wondering if any of it is worth it. Is the pain of it all worth loving?? She also says "maybe we should just try to tell ourselves a good lie", meaning that to avoid all the pain of love, people should just never say "i love you". Then, all the problems would be solved...
To which I say - Nope, that's not how life works. Being on the other side of everything that has happened to me in my short life, I think that it is worth loving even though you know that the love might end. I don't regret any of my past loves. They were wonderful times in my life that I wouldn't forget for the world -- this does not mean that they hurt like Hell when they were over though. :( But if I never experienced these loves and their losses, I would have never known their joys and never have grown into the young woman that I am today. I would rather experience all the love in the world and have to deal with all the pain when they're gone than never experience any love at all.
This song is so powerful because is Billie telling her listeners and warning them about how love is a dangerous and bumpy road... but it is worth it. It is complicated and difficult... but it is worth it. Because once you do find the right one, you will know. You will see them in your life for the rest of your life. And the love will make you feel bigger than yourself. At least that is what they say. :) But also, Billie warns her listeners that this eternal love might not be found on your first try... more often than not, you will have to deal with the pain(s) of love before the joys come to comfort you for life. However, in my opinion, I think these experiences (the good and the bad) are what makes us human. They teach us how to brush off the dirt and get out of bed every morning. :) And there will be a day when we find our soulmates - and we will live happily ever after. But you can't love someone else if you don't love yourself first. Please never forget that, because I did, and that will probably go down as the worst mistake I ever made that negatively affected my mental health. Chin up and smile -- you'll never know your own beauty if you refuse to see it.
Thanks again for taking the time to read my thoughts -- I will try to write another post before I leave for Europe!!
Sleep good and hold tight :)
-Sarah Townsend
Photo by Ethan Robertson on Unsplash Photo by Simon Noh on Unsplash Photo by Tyler Nix on Unsplash Photo by Aziz Acharki on Unsplash
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So I want to make this goal for myself -- every week this summer (at least), I am going to post on this blog. I know this blog is mainly for my music and how it affects me emotionally, but especially with all the change that I am going through, I don't want to mainly focus on just music. I will still try to give some song recommendations with each post, but overall, this is will a safe place for me to share all of my adventures for this summer (and there will be a lot)!! Anyways, at the beginning of last week, I decided to make a new playlist on Spotify (which is still superior to iTunes) called "times are changing, wake up kid", because I realized that I had been listening to so much new music that was literally all over the place. Also, the name of the playlist really reflects my current situation in life (lol) with change coming at me from ALL directions... but somehow, I have managed to roll with all the punches (so far). Also, the picture for the playlist is a flower -- because we all have to go through different periods of growth! :) If anyone of you know me personally, all I would listen to up until this January was acoustic music. While I am not saying that this music is bad... I just now understand that there is a specific time and place for it (like studying or just trying to calm down).
Now, I have BRANCHED out!! Some people that I am currently getting into are as follows: BROCKHAMPTON, Billie Eilish, Post Malone (a God - I swear), Dijon (featured two posts ago!), and Childish Gambino! I know -- some huge steps from what I was previously listening to! But really, it is all for the better. Whenever I listen to this music, I just want to get up and DANCE!! Obviously, I am still a die hard Maggie Rogers or The Head and the Heart fan... but seriously, pleaseeeee go check out some of the people that I have listed above because they are really really good. :)
For today, I am gonna break out the emotions because I really really want to share how the song "i love you" by Billie Eilish has affected me. This song is off her most recent album, "When we all fall asleep, where do we go?", which actually made her publicity explode... seriously, she is so talented and she's only 17 (already way more successful than I ever will be lol). While I am sure all of you guys have listened to "wish you were gay", "bury a friend", or even "when the party's over", a less well-known song by her, "i love you", is actually incredible. This is going back to my obsession with acoustic music -- "i love you" is acoustic and absolutely devastating. Honestly, I try not to listen to super sad music all the time (anymore) because it just reminds me of all the sh*t that went down during these past couple of months....
but I do want to elaborate on this song, because like I said, it is beautiful.
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My favorite lyrics in this song are in the second verse:
"Up all night on another red eye.
I wish we never learned to fly.
Maybe we should just try to tell ourselves a good lie."
This song is all about how someone said to someone else how they love them... but in reality, it was too soon. Then, they try to brush it off like it was nothing... except for when you tell someone that you "love them", there is no going back. Love is so deep and powerful that it makes people so vulnerable and sensitive in that moment. That is why it is is so painful to fall out of love -- because to love someone (to really love them), you cannot just cut them out of your life forever; they will always be attached to your heart in some way (almost like a tattoo). Anyways, Billie says "I wish we never to learned to fly", implying how falling in love is like flying: everything is AMAZING until you crash into the ground. It hurts so much when the love ends, like when you lose your wings and fall from the sky. Billie is wondering if any of it is worth it. Is the pain of it all worth loving?? She also says "maybe we should just try to tell ourselves a good lie", meaning that to avoid all the pain of love, people should just never say "i love you". Then, all the problems would be solved...
To which I say - Nope, that's not how life works. Being on the other side of everything that has happened to me in my short life, I think that it is worth loving even though you know that the love might end. I don't regret any of my past loves. They were wonderful times in my life that I wouldn't forget for the world -- this does not mean that they hurt like Hell when they were over though. :( But if I never experienced these loves and their losses, I would have never known their joys and never have grown into the young woman that I am today. I would rather experience all the love in the world and have to deal with all the pain when they're gone than never experience any love at all.
This song is so powerful because is Billie telling her listeners and warning them about how love is a dangerous and bumpy road... but it is worth it. It is complicated and difficult... but it is worth it. Because once you do find the right one, you will know. You will see them in your life for the rest of your life. And the love will make you feel bigger than yourself. At least that is what they say. :) But also, Billie warns her listeners that this eternal love might not be found on your first try... more often than not, you will have to deal with the pain(s) of love before the joys come to comfort you for life. However, in my opinion, I think these experiences (the good and the bad) are what makes us human. They teach us how to brush off the dirt and get out of bed every morning. :) And there will be a day when we find our soulmates - and we will live happily ever after. But you can't love someone else if you don't love yourself first. Please never forget that, because I did, and that will probably go down as the worst mistake I ever made that negatively affected my mental health. Chin up and smile -- you'll never know your own beauty if you refuse to see it.
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Thanks again for taking the time to read my thoughts -- I will try to write another post before I leave for Europe!!
Sleep good and hold tight :)
-Sarah Townsend
Photo by Ethan Robertson on Unsplash Photo by Simon Noh on Unsplash Photo by Tyler Nix on Unsplash Photo by Aziz Acharki on Unsplash
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