"Terrible Love" // Birdy - some more soft, emotional acoustic sounds

hello again! :) Just like I promised, here I am trying to post again! I'm also trying to get as much out of my system because I am actually leaving the country (yeet) on Monday night... and I am not sure how available I am going to be/if I will have service to blog about my adventures very frequently. But anyways! Very recently, I have gotten into yoga! It all started this past semester after life happened and things took a turn for the worst... but we're all better now! I started going to this power yoga place by my school and absolutely LOVED every class I went to. The classes were all pretty intense, hot, core yoga - so it was definitely a workout, but also very worth it! I loved going and just being able to focus on my breath for a solid hour; nothing else mattered outside those doors. It was always just me, my breathe, and the flow of yoga running through my body.

highly recommend giving yoga a shot !

Okay so you're probably wondering what any of this has to do with music... well! Let me tell you! The music that was almost always playing in the background of every class was Birdy... and I love her. Her voice is like silk, soothing to listen to and comforting to the soul. I pretty much love any and all her songs, but one of my all time favorites is "Terrible Love". I actually found this song (and this album) earlier in the fall, but I never really got into it as much as I would have liked because I was super busy. Anyways, "Terrible Love" is not just a song - it is an emotional journey. It is so tragic and heartbreaking, but all the while incredible and loving.

So this song is actually off of one of her older albums, "Birdy" from 2011... but honestly, I think this is one of my favorite albums by her. Some of my favorite songs on this album include "People Help The People", "I'll Never Forget You", and "Fire and Rain". Again, her voice is just so soothing and heartwarming, so pleaseeeee give this album a good listen. :)) My favorite part about "Terrible Love" is actually the last 30 seconds when she repeats the following line multiple times:

"It takes an ocean not to break"

This line is also repeated earlier (I think it might be the chorus but I actually have no idea)... but anyways, it is the TRUTH. Essentially, the song is how she (Birdy) fell out of love after she realized that the man (or woman -- all love is love folks) was not the person she thought they were. She says "It's a terrible love and I'm walking with spiders" because even when you fall out of love, there will still be a piece of you that loves that person forever... no matter how much you want to tell yourself otherwise. And you "walk with spiders" constantly because you basically have to build yourself back up from the ground. You kind of like go through a crisis (lol) because you don't remember who you were before being in that relationship. Obviously, with patience, courage, and time, you will find yourself again and have more confidence in yourself than ever before, but it is NOT easy. You do have to get used to the spiders that might haunt you at night because there is an indescribable loneliness that comes with being freshly single.

I love this song because while it does sound really really sad, it is actually very empowering. Birdy is telling us that it will take a long time for you to be completely "healed" and "normal"... but it is worth it to drag yourself through all the pain because the other side is soooo bright. She also warns you that you will probably "break", but that was always inevitable. If we never break at least once in life, then we will never find the strength within ourselves to come back from rock bottom (or sometimes, even the bottom of rock bottom)?? She also says "But I won't follow you into the rabbit hole" because she refuses to give into the failure that was her previous relationship. Some people can be so devastated by a breakup or any loss for that matter that they completely shut themselves out from the world (and literally crawl into a rabbit hole). Well I know I haven't really experienced that much loss in my life so I don't want to speak on behalf of everyone who is going through a lot more than me right now, but I just want to say that crawling inside and hole and not seeking any help is the last thing that you want to do for yourself. You will actually end up hating yourself more than before. And you will feel so lonely. :(

Anyways, please give Birdy a listen because she's amazing! Thanks, as always, for reading my mildly inspiring rants about life -- it means a lot! I don't know if I will have the time for another post before I peace outta here, but I will try as best as I can!!
Till next time.... sleep good and hold tight :)
-Sarah

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