"Ceilings" // Local Natives -- hey :)
Hello! So obviously a lot has happened over the past year. I also really want to try and do a better job of updating this blog weekly with new songs and my reactions to the songs. But as you know, life can get very busy with school and work and me just trying to keep my head above water. I've learned so much about myself since I moved to Tampa and started my new life down there. I don't want to sound like some self-absorbed idiot who is trying to enlighten other people about how life is too short, but also, you should probably live in the here and now (lol).
So I'm still an elementary education major! Despite all of the changes that have happened to me in the past year, one thing that has stayed constant is my passion for working with children and helping them to succeed. So that's reassuring. Everything else is kind of up in the air - but such is life! I absolutely loved my first semester at the University of South Florida. It was very difficult at first because I felt like I was a freshman all over again. I didn't know anyone, I didn't know my way around, and I also felt very socially excluded because everyone seemed to have friends. However, the biggest difference that I realized about my previous school (St. Norbert College) and USF is that there are SO many people at USF that even when I felt all alone, there were people all around me who also didn't know each other. So instead of feeling like a nobody in a sea of somebodies, I was surrounded by fellow nobodies just like me trying to get through their days. But not in like a sad way -- in a good way! :)
Anyways, I joined a super chill acapella group, got a coffee shop job in downtown Tampa, and really started taking care of myself (mentally and physically). I would say that the biggest thing that I discovered about myself from moving to Tampa is that I thoroughly enjoy spending quality time with myself. For example, there will be days that I just drive myself to a store and walk around. Or take myself out to lunch. Or enjoy a beautiful walk on the riverwalk to clear my mind. I think I always thought that doing things alone made me a loser - but actually, I would say the opposite now. I finally feel like I'm at a good place in my life where I can both enjoy the company of others, but more importantly, I can enjoy the company of myself! :) Not to mention -- I don't have to deal with the exhausting drama that big friend groups used to bring into life. I think befriending myself first was my solution to finding genuine people to be friends with.
okay okay so this a music discussion blog... so finally, lets get to the song that I want to talk about today!!! I got really into Local Natives recently (which is weird because I always like a handful of their songs, but really never got that into them). But!! "Ceilings" off of Hummingbird (2013) is such a sad but incredible song. My favorite part about it is that it so many different plots that such a wide variety of listeners can relate to. It's not just for the broken-hearted! It's for the sleep deprived, love lost, summer dreamers... so many people can relate to this song. Anyways, since this post is already pretty long, I just want to share this part of the song with you guys:
"Walk around 'til 3am
Tell me what I know again
To keep myself from second guessing"
For those of you who know me personally, I have a great deal of anxiety when it comes to large social situations and making big decisions. However, by taking so many risks in the past year, I can relate to these lyrics so well. "Tell me what I know again to keep myself from second guessing" -- well what we really know is almost nothing. There are so many unknowns in life and whenever I start to stress about something, I simply try to remind myself that it is okay to not have all the answers. Really - there will always be things that we cannot control. But the act of second guessing yourself is only hurting you more than helping you. I think you just have to throw yourself in the fire and see what happens. But I also know that a lot of people don't agree with me so whatever. I'm just out here doing me! :)
That's all for now -
Thanks for reading. Have an incredible day! :)
Photo by Tim Mossholder on Unsplash
So I'm still an elementary education major! Despite all of the changes that have happened to me in the past year, one thing that has stayed constant is my passion for working with children and helping them to succeed. So that's reassuring. Everything else is kind of up in the air - but such is life! I absolutely loved my first semester at the University of South Florida. It was very difficult at first because I felt like I was a freshman all over again. I didn't know anyone, I didn't know my way around, and I also felt very socially excluded because everyone seemed to have friends. However, the biggest difference that I realized about my previous school (St. Norbert College) and USF is that there are SO many people at USF that even when I felt all alone, there were people all around me who also didn't know each other. So instead of feeling like a nobody in a sea of somebodies, I was surrounded by fellow nobodies just like me trying to get through their days. But not in like a sad way -- in a good way! :)
Anyways, I joined a super chill acapella group, got a coffee shop job in downtown Tampa, and really started taking care of myself (mentally and physically). I would say that the biggest thing that I discovered about myself from moving to Tampa is that I thoroughly enjoy spending quality time with myself. For example, there will be days that I just drive myself to a store and walk around. Or take myself out to lunch. Or enjoy a beautiful walk on the riverwalk to clear my mind. I think I always thought that doing things alone made me a loser - but actually, I would say the opposite now. I finally feel like I'm at a good place in my life where I can both enjoy the company of others, but more importantly, I can enjoy the company of myself! :) Not to mention -- I don't have to deal with the exhausting drama that big friend groups used to bring into life. I think befriending myself first was my solution to finding genuine people to be friends with.
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| this picture literally has nothing to do with this post - I just thought that it looked cool! :) |
okay okay so this a music discussion blog... so finally, lets get to the song that I want to talk about today!!! I got really into Local Natives recently (which is weird because I always like a handful of their songs, but really never got that into them). But!! "Ceilings" off of Hummingbird (2013) is such a sad but incredible song. My favorite part about it is that it so many different plots that such a wide variety of listeners can relate to. It's not just for the broken-hearted! It's for the sleep deprived, love lost, summer dreamers... so many people can relate to this song. Anyways, since this post is already pretty long, I just want to share this part of the song with you guys:
"Walk around 'til 3am
Tell me what I know again
To keep myself from second guessing"
For those of you who know me personally, I have a great deal of anxiety when it comes to large social situations and making big decisions. However, by taking so many risks in the past year, I can relate to these lyrics so well. "Tell me what I know again to keep myself from second guessing" -- well what we really know is almost nothing. There are so many unknowns in life and whenever I start to stress about something, I simply try to remind myself that it is okay to not have all the answers. Really - there will always be things that we cannot control. But the act of second guessing yourself is only hurting you more than helping you. I think you just have to throw yourself in the fire and see what happens. But I also know that a lot of people don't agree with me so whatever. I'm just out here doing me! :)
That's all for now -
Thanks for reading. Have an incredible day! :)
Photo by Tim Mossholder on Unsplash
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